In an extended interview, Oak Creek police officer Lt. Brian Murphy, who was shot 12 times by the attacker in August’s shooting at the Gurdwara in Oak Creek, Wisconsin, talks about what happened the day of the attack and life since:

“People always ask me, do you flash back, do you have nightmares,” Murphy says. “My answer is no. I have none of that. I’m lucky and I touch wood. I’m very fortunate that way. But what I do look back at is what I could have done different. I have always been a big proponent, no reason to go over 70 miles an hour. You put others at risk. But if I could have gone 100, could I have stopped him from shooting just one other person?”

“I apologized to the Sikh Temple for not getting there sooner,” he says. “I apologized to my wife for putting her through all of this. You know, how much stress can you get, having to go through something like this? I apologized to my children.”‘

View the interview above, and read more at the Milwaukee Journal-Sentinel.